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What others have to say...
"Am I Going Mad? is more than just informative, entertaining and inspiring, it is a must read for anyone ready to integrate and self-actualise their spiritual existence - truly a physiological, psychological and spiritual masterpiece for the sake of human evolution."
Dr John F. Demartini
Best-selling author of 'The Breakthrough Experience'
"I felt obliged to thank you, you have written the best spiritual book I have read. Your insights and thorough research is nothing short of extraordinary. My wife and I decided to co-op read it so we could discuss each chapter but in the end I could not put it down and finished it today.
Your book I'm sure will greatly assist many people just as it has helped me progress on a spiritual path. It was like lots of little pieces of spiritual jigsaw coming together to form a bigger picture. Something that will help my main objective which is to become a better man, husband, father, son, brother."
Andrew Berry
"Wow! What an amazing achievement. Congratulations, it is phenomenal in scope and breadth."
Kerim Nutku
BA Psych, MBA, Tavistock Group Relations GraduateTeam Facilitator and Coach
"For me, what makes a great book is that I cannot wait to read the next chapter, I get excited by the new knowledge, I spend a lot of time reflecting on what I have read, it personally affects and influences my life. And finally I'm a changed person for having read it. This fantastic book did all of the above, I loved it!"
Gemma Buenen,
Meditation Teacher.
"Your book is awesome. I am loving reading it and am finding it impossible to put down. I have not yet put my finger on what it is that makes it so compelling (combination of the quality of the content and writing style me thinks) but it is something very special. It is a brilliant book, Marlyse." Sarah Reece
Learning & Development Manager, Barrett Consulting Group
"Am I Going Mad? is a great reference book on the links between spirituality, modern science and psychology. It is also a wonderful, entertaining, engaging romp through selected bits of Marlyse's spiritual journey. The title itself will resonate with anyone who has begun to unfold their spiritual essence because, by definition it makes no sense to the conscious mind. This is not a journey of the mind, which shrieks its protest... certainly mine does. Am I Going Mad? is a courageous, informative, thoroughly researched and caringly created work and I thoroughly recommend it to anyone walking their spiritual path." Dr. Richard Presser
Engineer, teacher and writer
"Hello Marlyse, I finished your book at 2 a.m. this morning, I couldn't put it down! So so so wonderful. It answered so many questions I had been asking myself, it was like you wrote it for me!! I really acknowledge your courage in putting so much personal material
in, it makes the book really really special.
After reading it, for some reason I'm no longer afraid. I feel so much more peaceful and clear, like your book just brought everything together for me and I'm sure it will keep making a difference for me as I read it over and over!
I just can't express my gratitude to you enough Marlyse.” Wendy Brewer
Meditation Teacher, Shepparton
Resurrection
By Teneille Clerke, Melbourne, 2009
Waves of bliss roll through my body. I’m filled with a warm sensation running up my core, it’s similar to the pangs of emotion I felt when I first fell in love. Butterflies. Everything feels amazing, my body, my skin, the air. I’ve never felt like this before. I’m connected, I’m something more, we’re something more, I belong. All fear falls away and I’m left with a sensation of peace. I’m 21 years old and I’m standing in a room full of people. I’ve just taken my first ecstacy tablet and I’m suddenly awake.
I want this feeling again. I want to belong. I want to feel love. I want to fly. I want my skin to tingle. I want to love the strange sweaty girl I meet in the line for the toilet. I want to hear the best song I have ever heard in my life. I want to say profound things.
But it never lasts and my world becomes darker than before.
I begin to chase one feeling off with another. I search in dark places for light, only to find more darkness. Friends become enemies. Families become strangers.
So many people around me but I make my pleas for peace alone, where no one can hear.
Sleepless nights full of anxiety and fear. I drag myself through the day and spend the evenings between the back porch and the bed. One cone after the other. Hazy numb peace at last.
But like a clear picture suddenly appearing on a TV full of static, my hazy numb peace is interrupted. In and out I fall of two realities. Dreams? Delusions? I don’t know. I’m in between two worlds.
Intense fear of losing control. My heart races until it feels it could burst out of my body. There’s nothing I can do. My body turns to pins and needles. I can’t feel my hands. They look twisted, stiff, contorted. Panic, fear, hopelessness. Am I dying?
I fear labels. Deep down I know I’m turning mad. So I choose silence.
How long can I live like this before it starts to show? Not long. But it seems I meet the right friends, Xanax, Cerapax, Lithium, Temazapan. They’re all here to help.
But, there’s something inside me that yearns for something more. A tiny whisper I can barely hear over the chaotic sounds in my head, but I hear it.
I ignore the voice. Another voice? This kind of madness has a name. I dare not say it.
The voice gets louder and I refuse to listen but it still persists. I pray for something, anything. I cry out to the universe in desperation.
I’m sent an angel. My angel tells me she too feels mad. I feel relief. I pray to know more.
This time an angel gives me a book.
‘Am I Going Mad?’ comes into my life. I cannot put it down. Again I feel relief and with the answers to my questions I begin to feel blessed.
The chaos, the drama, the hate, the fear, that’s the delusion and I can find peace. I begin to find peace. I can quieten my mind. I can see and hear clearly. I am awake and I see now who is mad.
I learn to meditate. I learn to make space in my mind. I follow my breath. I listen to my heart. I dance. I dance my soul. The chaotic sounds in my mind move further and further apart, and I can be in silence.
I sit in silence, not needing, not wanting. Slowly more fear falls away and there’s room for more peace.
I sit in silence, and there’s room for more answers. More fear falls away.
I sit in silence, and I surrender.
I heal from the inside out.
And as I sit in silence I remember. I remember that I always belonged. I remember that I am forgiven. I remember that I am loved. I remember that I am.
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